This is where I want to be right now. Not Niagara Falls specifically, but maybe somewhere just as beautiful and awe-inspiring and far, far away. And not physically, but emotionally. There are so many words, ideas, thoughts, exchanges and moments that can't be described, they just add up into something I don't know how to handle.Wednesday, June 23, 2010
pieces of what (?)
This is where I want to be right now. Not Niagara Falls specifically, but maybe somewhere just as beautiful and awe-inspiring and far, far away. And not physically, but emotionally. There are so many words, ideas, thoughts, exchanges and moments that can't be described, they just add up into something I don't know how to handle.Sunday, June 6, 2010
one day at a time
My current favorite song is Break Your Heart by Taio Cruz.
Mostly because it reminds me of driving 50 miles an hour with Curtis down windy back roads to middle-of-nowhere, VA.
The funny thing is that the lyrics are awful and they're talking about a total loser.
So sad.
Yesterday my boy and I went on an adventure up to AG. There are lots of things to laugh about, and lots of things I want to remember. Maybe winning yellow truck along the way is one of them, hehe. I ate a burger. That is a big deal okay. My favorite part was getting fruity ice cream and eating it on a bench at a park overlooking the ocean. We watched the sun go down behind the houses while I taught him Chinese phrases. I was laughing so hard at the way he pronounced everything. What is he going to do in China this summer?! I don't know. He'll be going around telling everyone not to be messy and that he's afraid of spicy food. We saw a police chase on the way back. Three, four then five police cars racing after this one car that was foolish enough to think he could just keep driving and not have to stop. That was adventurous all by itself.
Last weekend we went hiking up to a water fall. We had to ford creeks to get there, covered wagon style. Except it was nice to have his big car with high clearance, otherwise there would've been some swimming involved. The weather was hot hot hot but the trail wasn't too long, only 3 miles. We got to the water fall and it was lovely seeing it, though we hadn't brought swim suits so the most I did was wash my hands in it. On the way back we jumped off the trail to a nice pile of rocks by the water and just sat and talked and prayed and watched the fish and salamanders swim. He needed to get back to allow time for his Sunday night dinner, so we didn't stay for that long. But it was just long enough to enjoy the day and to enjoy being with him, so it was perfect.
A lot of things are perfect right now. I don't know what I ever did to deserve him but I still feel like I don't. I don't deserve how thoughtful and sweet and selfless and genuine he is. This summer is going to be one of the most difficult things of my life thus far; infinitely more so than last summer. But at least this summer I am sure. Sure of him, sure of me. I have five days left with him and many more memories that still need to be made.
Mostly because it reminds me of driving 50 miles an hour with Curtis down windy back roads to middle-of-nowhere, VA.
The funny thing is that the lyrics are awful and they're talking about a total loser.
So sad.
Yesterday my boy and I went on an adventure up to AG. There are lots of things to laugh about, and lots of things I want to remember. Maybe winning yellow truck along the way is one of them, hehe. I ate a burger. That is a big deal okay. My favorite part was getting fruity ice cream and eating it on a bench at a park overlooking the ocean. We watched the sun go down behind the houses while I taught him Chinese phrases. I was laughing so hard at the way he pronounced everything. What is he going to do in China this summer?! I don't know. He'll be going around telling everyone not to be messy and that he's afraid of spicy food. We saw a police chase on the way back. Three, four then five police cars racing after this one car that was foolish enough to think he could just keep driving and not have to stop. That was adventurous all by itself.
Last weekend we went hiking up to a water fall. We had to ford creeks to get there, covered wagon style. Except it was nice to have his big car with high clearance, otherwise there would've been some swimming involved. The weather was hot hot hot but the trail wasn't too long, only 3 miles. We got to the water fall and it was lovely seeing it, though we hadn't brought swim suits so the most I did was wash my hands in it. On the way back we jumped off the trail to a nice pile of rocks by the water and just sat and talked and prayed and watched the fish and salamanders swim. He needed to get back to allow time for his Sunday night dinner, so we didn't stay for that long. But it was just long enough to enjoy the day and to enjoy being with him, so it was perfect.
A lot of things are perfect right now. I don't know what I ever did to deserve him but I still feel like I don't. I don't deserve how thoughtful and sweet and selfless and genuine he is. This summer is going to be one of the most difficult things of my life thus far; infinitely more so than last summer. But at least this summer I am sure. Sure of him, sure of me. I have five days left with him and many more memories that still need to be made.
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